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Feb. 11th, 2006 11:41 pmDude. Spending all day on the internet sucks.
And it was totally wasted time, too. Nothing but farting around all day. I should should should be working on summer job applications but it's hard to get back into that whole mindset. Meanwhile, I am wasting time. Blah blah blah, la la la.
Here are some songs I like:
Cocteau Twins - Ivo
http://s19.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=17T12JQHK7HVJ2K39MTG7M2BB8
Devandra Barhart - Quedate Luna
http://s21.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=0SXI7CWDHMV231JYJWQS40C0WG
Sivert Høyem - Big River (I like this cover even better than Johnny Cash's original--played hard and reckless)
http://s10.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=30FG4BYE8FKZD06LMOQTFXMJSP
Johnny Cash - Walkin' the Blues
http://s11.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=0XS13CL1NQYYW2FKUJXYK7L60Q
Goldfrapp - Lovely Head
http://s4.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=2ZYXDHBTDN0G91UR6UUSGVS7OF
All right, might as well go to bed. Try and get a decent start on the day tomorrow. I need a social life. I used to not care about that, but anymore I feel antsy and bored hanging around this house all the time. I want to go places on the weekends, do things. I do things by myself, but a person cannot survive on bread and water alone. I don't know why I feel so uncomfortable at the thought of like going out to concerts right here in the town where I grew up. Do I not want anyone I know to see me, or what? Yeah, that's it, it's not really a question. For some reason I find it very intimidating, the thought of running into anyone I used to know from high school.
Anyway, I'll be moved out and on my own in due time. I always feel more comfortable to be myself when I'm away from my family. I'm really trying to make this next leap off the family nest my final one. I want to stay on my own for good this time. I feel very ready for it. Beyond ready. Living here in my old basement room, it feels like trying to squeeze into something that doesn't fit anymore. Feels like I'm trying to pretend to be a kid again. Just doesn't feel right.
Edit: Oh yeah! I forgot to mention. You guys remember Chris from when I was working at YMCA? Here's a song from his band:
The Valediction - Caution to the Wind
http://s15.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=1PQP1R892A9RD2RWEJRRSL6FA3
I'm sure he'd want me to add a disclaimer that this is just a rough recording and not the best representation the band. Chris plays guitar and does some of the vocals, and as far as I know, the band is still up and running.
And it was totally wasted time, too. Nothing but farting around all day. I should should should be working on summer job applications but it's hard to get back into that whole mindset. Meanwhile, I am wasting time. Blah blah blah, la la la.
Here are some songs I like:
Cocteau Twins - Ivo
http://s19.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=17T12JQHK7HVJ2K39MTG7M2BB8
Devandra Barhart - Quedate Luna
http://s21.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=0SXI7CWDHMV231JYJWQS40C0WG
Sivert Høyem - Big River (I like this cover even better than Johnny Cash's original--played hard and reckless)
http://s10.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=30FG4BYE8FKZD06LMOQTFXMJSP
Johnny Cash - Walkin' the Blues
http://s11.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=0XS13CL1NQYYW2FKUJXYK7L60Q
Goldfrapp - Lovely Head
http://s4.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=2ZYXDHBTDN0G91UR6UUSGVS7OF
All right, might as well go to bed. Try and get a decent start on the day tomorrow. I need a social life. I used to not care about that, but anymore I feel antsy and bored hanging around this house all the time. I want to go places on the weekends, do things. I do things by myself, but a person cannot survive on bread and water alone. I don't know why I feel so uncomfortable at the thought of like going out to concerts right here in the town where I grew up. Do I not want anyone I know to see me, or what? Yeah, that's it, it's not really a question. For some reason I find it very intimidating, the thought of running into anyone I used to know from high school.
Anyway, I'll be moved out and on my own in due time. I always feel more comfortable to be myself when I'm away from my family. I'm really trying to make this next leap off the family nest my final one. I want to stay on my own for good this time. I feel very ready for it. Beyond ready. Living here in my old basement room, it feels like trying to squeeze into something that doesn't fit anymore. Feels like I'm trying to pretend to be a kid again. Just doesn't feel right.
Edit: Oh yeah! I forgot to mention. You guys remember Chris from when I was working at YMCA? Here's a song from his band:
The Valediction - Caution to the Wind
http://s15.yousendit.com/d.aspx?id=1PQP1R892A9RD2RWEJRRSL6FA3
I'm sure he'd want me to add a disclaimer that this is just a rough recording and not the best representation the band. Chris plays guitar and does some of the vocals, and as far as I know, the band is still up and running.
