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atotalblamblamI've been on my own in this house with my dog since Thursday due to a family funeral in Idaho that all the family went to except me. It's been fine. A nice break of silence, and the one day I had to leave Jas alone while I was at work, she only made a very small mess.
Anyway, tonight I remembered I still had the webpage of one of the guys from the trail crew, so I typed in his address and scrolled down the page to see what he's been up to and my heart bammed and my eyes went hot when I saw that he went back to K Bay just this summer as the crew boss. It sounds funny to read the reaction I had, but see it's all tied up in this whole big emotional thing about my life is passing me by, I'm not moving forward, he's still having adventures and blah blah blah. And there was a pic of the old crew boss looking littler and skinnier than ever and look, the supervisor's grown his hair out like some mountain man, haha. I'm sorry that you guys keep having to read me going on and on about back in the good old days. Yeah, it's been over a year since all that but I can't leave it behind because it's part of the big emotional thing about my life passing me by, I'm not moving forward, and blah blah blah. Thinking about the good things I've done helps me to believe I can do more good things in the future.
If I had a digital camera right now I'd take pictures of all the things I've knitted and crocheted, aren't you glad you've been spared.
I've finally come to love Radiohead. It's taken me many years. But I downloaded Hail to the Thief and I love almost every song. Favorite song is "We Suck Young Blood," followed by "Go to Sleep". Now I'm trying to get ahold of some bluegrass music, particularly a live album with Alison Krauss and Union Station. Also looking for some Loretta Lynn, she of the "These Boots Were Made for Walkin" fame. Why am I typing this I don't know.
Did I say yet that I've been sorta trying to get an au pair job through http://www.greataupair.com? And that I've been e-mailing back and forth with three families in various parts of Norway? Top contender is a family in Northern central Norway, who live on a farm in the very rural country. So while I've been waiting for various e-mail responses, I've been obsessively searching for photographs of those parts of Norway and thoroughly enjoying myself in the process. That's one of the first things I do when I'm going to be somewhere for awhile--look at every picture of the place I can find. Maybe I'll post links to a few extra-nice photos I've found.
I always worry when I write things in here that I sound creepy or psycho or paranoid. I still worry, but I stopped trying to sound normal, whatever that is. I also worry that I end up sounding self-obsessed. But I think it's like, you think about and talk about the people you spend the most time with. I'm pretty much always alone with myself, so myself becomes the main topic. How horrible, but true.
Anyway, tonight I remembered I still had the webpage of one of the guys from the trail crew, so I typed in his address and scrolled down the page to see what he's been up to and my heart bammed and my eyes went hot when I saw that he went back to K Bay just this summer as the crew boss. It sounds funny to read the reaction I had, but see it's all tied up in this whole big emotional thing about my life is passing me by, I'm not moving forward, he's still having adventures and blah blah blah. And there was a pic of the old crew boss looking littler and skinnier than ever and look, the supervisor's grown his hair out like some mountain man, haha. I'm sorry that you guys keep having to read me going on and on about back in the good old days. Yeah, it's been over a year since all that but I can't leave it behind because it's part of the big emotional thing about my life passing me by, I'm not moving forward, and blah blah blah. Thinking about the good things I've done helps me to believe I can do more good things in the future.
If I had a digital camera right now I'd take pictures of all the things I've knitted and crocheted, aren't you glad you've been spared.
I've finally come to love Radiohead. It's taken me many years. But I downloaded Hail to the Thief and I love almost every song. Favorite song is "We Suck Young Blood," followed by "Go to Sleep". Now I'm trying to get ahold of some bluegrass music, particularly a live album with Alison Krauss and Union Station. Also looking for some Loretta Lynn, she of the "These Boots Were Made for Walkin" fame. Why am I typing this I don't know.
Did I say yet that I've been sorta trying to get an au pair job through http://www.greataupair.com? And that I've been e-mailing back and forth with three families in various parts of Norway? Top contender is a family in Northern central Norway, who live on a farm in the very rural country. So while I've been waiting for various e-mail responses, I've been obsessively searching for photographs of those parts of Norway and thoroughly enjoying myself in the process. That's one of the first things I do when I'm going to be somewhere for awhile--look at every picture of the place I can find. Maybe I'll post links to a few extra-nice photos I've found.
I always worry when I write things in here that I sound creepy or psycho or paranoid. I still worry, but I stopped trying to sound normal, whatever that is. I also worry that I end up sounding self-obsessed. But I think it's like, you think about and talk about the people you spend the most time with. I'm pretty much always alone with myself, so myself becomes the main topic. How horrible, but true.
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