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atotalblamblam ([personal profile] atotalblamblam) wrote2003-06-13 01:00 am

in Alaska

It sucks to be unimportant. It sucks to be no one, not cared about, unknown. It sucks that I'm making it this way. It sucks that it's not all my fault, but they think it is. It sucks that no one wants me. That no one wants me here, wants me around, needs my company. I am disposeable. I am lonely. I am alone.

[identity profile] leanasidhe.livejournal.com 2003-06-13 06:24 am (UTC)(link)
*hugs* i'm sorry, sweetie....

[identity profile] atotalblamblam.livejournal.com 2003-07-24 10:23 am (UTC)(link)
Aw, thanks. Was just getting some thoughts out on paper. Er, on... screen.

[identity profile] loserx.livejournal.com 2003-06-13 07:48 am (UTC)(link)
join a cult. show them.

[identity profile] atotalblamblam.livejournal.com 2003-07-24 10:26 am (UTC)(link)
But. This is a cult! What do I do if my cult rejects me??

[identity profile] poploser.livejournal.com 2003-06-14 07:59 pm (UTC)(link)
Come into Anchorage, and we'll hang out! It would be a lot of fun.
I know that my friends and I are planing a trip into Homer somtime in July, and we'll definately hook up then.
you just made the mistake of taking a job where there are going to be gung ho alaskan yuppie snobs, and I'm sorry. Are you going to stick in town in the winter, I know that UAA is super cheap and laughingly easy.

[identity profile] atotalblamblam.livejournal.com 2003-07-24 10:36 am (UTC)(link)
Oh, I'm ok. It's not the Alaskans that trouble me, it's the other crew members (mostly from the East coast, actually). But I'm adjusting. It's a growing experience and all that. I went in knowing this would be hard, and it is, but hard stuff is good for me. I'd love to be here in the winter to see the eternal darkness and the northern lights, but I shall be heading back home late August.

And and and! I do hope we can meet up in Homer! My e-mail address is roam@pdx.edu. Let me know if you know when you'll be in Homer, and hopefully I'll be off work around then. I'm off this week until Friday.

[identity profile] poploser.livejournal.com 2003-06-14 08:03 pm (UTC)(link)
I'm sorry that people are being mean to you though. If it makes you feel better, the snobbiest people in the world are Alaskans, and it's absolutely nothing personal. In fact you should be glad that you're not like them. homer is a pretty dull town if you're not local and don't know anyone there.
but if you have a spare weekend and can get into town, we can put you up in our spare room, and my friends and I can show you Anchorage.

[identity profile] atotalblamblam.livejournal.com 2003-07-24 10:39 am (UTC)(link)
I love Alaskans! I have received so much kindness and generousity from Alaskans this summer it isn't even funny.

And if I don't catch up with you in Homer, maybe I'll see you in Anchorage on my way to the airport in late August?